As some of you may know, I’ve been working on a little course covering my tips for getting started on Upwork.
It’s taken me almost 6 months to get version 1.0 done, which is a bit strange for me. Typically, when I have an idea for something I want to do, I just go after it. But something about this Upwork course kept stopping me in my tracks almost every time I would sit down to work on it!
At times, I would question myself, thinking, “Well, maybe I’m just not that excited about it anymore. So maybe I shouldn’t finish it since I seem to be a bit half-hearted about it.” Other times I would think, “Its taken way too long to finish something so seemingly simple. Maybe I should just call it quits.”
It’s so frustrating to hit a wall on a project that I truly do have interest in and want to share with other people. And it can be even more frustrating trying to figure out what that “wall” is.
For my Upwork course, I discovered that my procrastination… my “wall”, was my own insecurity.
For me, these were insecurities of being on camera and putting myself out there. Which, when I think about it, is a bit funny. In fact, all I’ve been doing over the past few years is putting myself out there and constantly trying new things!
So what changed? I think it has something to do with sharing my thoughts and opinions. I’m happy to learn new things and make stuff on my computer all day long – but sharing my thoughts and opinions (on camera!)…. that’s a bit nerve-racking for a girl like me! I’ve been nervous that I wouldn’t say the right things. That I would talk about topics that people aren’t interested in. That I might unintentionally give bad advice.
But once I realized that my “wall” was my own insecurity, I was able to move forward and stop procrastinating.
While it was scary and nerve-racking for me to move forward on creating my course, I’m glad I did. I’ve gained confidence and experience. I’ve opened up my mind to new ways of doing things. I’ve learned more things about myself. I’ve also proven to myself that my own hang-ups and insecurities don’t deserve the attention I was giving them. They are able to be overcome!
Are you hitting any walls with projects or things you want to accomplish due to your own insecurities? I’d love to hear your experience in the comments!
If you’re interested in the Upwork course I mentioned in this post, you can sign up to be notified of when it goes live by subscribing to my email list (sign up in the sidebar!) I have a couple small things left to finish for version 1.0 and I’m planning to have it live on Udemy over the next few weeks.